Waking Up With A Broken Heart

An Eternal Struggle to Survive…………..

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LOVE & PAIN

LOVE & PAIN

IT IS ALL ENCOMPASSING. 

It is a feeling of euphoria, yet, can be a feeling of sheer anxiety & torture at the same time.

It’s a tightness in your chest, it’s a shortness of breath, it’s a physical pain in your heart, as if all the blood is being drained……drop by drop……….making your heart beat faster…….trying to keep up with your shallow rapid breathing………..you feel as if you will lose consciousness………..the world around you is spinning before your eyes……….there is a painful gnawing inside you…………          where are you       i miss you       you are my everything

The thought of tomorrow without you makes the pain somehow worse……how is that even possible?…….to be worse I mean…….how can it possibly be any worse.

Do you understand? Do you know how I feel? I hope you don’t……………….

DO YOU KNOW WHAT TRUE LOVE FEELS LIKE? THIS IS TRUE LOVE THAT CAN NEVER BE……..

i miss you

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My Life………

My life is dedicated to saving all these precious suffering children………..

My life is dedicated to doing everything I can to making their time in treatment as “fun” as possible………

My life is dedicated to raising awareness of the “HELL” called Childhood Cancer………

My life is dedicated to finding a Cure………

My life is dedicated to you my precious baby…………..

IMG_5644 Our last Christmas together 2010

Miami Childrens Hospital Oncology party.

They made this a very special day for you, didn’t they??

Because of you……….

We now have Family Fun Night every week on the inpatient floor of Miami Childrens Hospital, Once a month our Mystic Force Foundation sponsors it. Mommy & her amazing volunteers bring decorations, music, crafts, goodie bags loaded with candy, snacks and drinks, LOTS of toys donated by amazing people & companies,including Enyd, Derek’s mommy & her Derek Marcos Never Give Up toy drive, Jakkks Pacific, the Ty Company, Pat & Charlene Hazzard and so many others. We bring food also donated from some of your favorite restaurants and people who care so much, your favorite Superheroes have joined us and of course your favorite doctor……”Guillermo” is always there.  We bring love, fun and laughter, just what you would have wanted. I always feel your presence, no matter how difficult it becomes, I know it’s what you would want me to do.I know this is what you would want.

I see your smile and your laughter in all of these amazing kids.

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He reminds me so much of you………. You must have told him to dance for us…………

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I WILL FOREVER DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO SAVE EVERY CHILD I CAN AND MAKE THEY AS HAPPY AS I CAN…….

FOR YOU……………. BECAUSE OF YOU……………

My True Love